Saturday

Life. Part 1. Part 2. Part 3.

These are of bits and pieces of my life. Snipets of memory. I write them down as they come to me. Just a few words written quickly. Haphazardly. Theres no order and my spelling doesn’t count.

Klondike bars
With kristi 
Mom and dads bed
Nature shows 
Eating like an animal 


Caldors
Baskin Robbins 
Rum raisin 
Heavenly hash
Cassette tape 
Halloween sounds and spooky stories


Homemade popcorn balls
Apples and peanut butter 
Bert and Ernie
Monday afternoons 
Childhood bliss

First grade
Warm autumn air
Swings next to the school
The side playground
Thinking about the houses behind us



Ladyfingers 
It seemed that growing up my mom 
Was always looking for ladyfingers 
Sending us to find them, disappointed when we didn’t 
Confections, concoctions and cake
To this day, whenever I find them in the store 
I can’t help but smile, “found them mom!”

Smells like ivory soap 
We were so little 
Mom singing 
“There’s a new little baby in our house
And she’s cute as cute can be 
There’s a new little baby in our house 
And she belongs to Kym kerri and kristi
Dickie and to me” 

Warm days
Bare-feet turned cold by water
The smell of Chlorine
The sound of an ice cream truck, Kids playing
Swatting mosquitoes
Empty peanut butter jars turned terrarium
Moving rocks
Catching crayfish
Bliss
Late July - summer at the pond

Wooden spoons
Mixing bowls
Flour, eggs milk
Summer mornings
Winter afternoons
Weekends
Weekdays
home made jams and sweet jellies
Cinnamon
Sugar
And sometimes peanut butter
But always butter
My mom made roll’em up pancakes
That’s fancy for “crepes”
As many as we could eat!
It was and will always be a favorite
I miss it terribly and what I wouldn’t give for
just one more “roll’em up pancake ❤️

Teaching me that a little mustard can be a good thing
Lucky charms and strawberries is like magic
BBQ sauce doesn’t have to be spicy
And that global table is never a good thing 

For the longest time, I thought the best way to “catch” a man is to make him a good meal. I was so clueless
Preschool memory
Water table 
Snacks in brown paper bags 
Cheese crackers and Juice in little wax paper cups
Mrs Elniki

Slumber parties
Sleep overs
Pizza from Jangos
The best make your own Sunday’s ever
Renting movies from block buster or the video store near the old grand union
Scary movies like “April’s fools day”and dads forever eternal question of, “Is it a new movies,”

Playing Joust upstairs in mom & dads room
Playing zork and getting scared in there too

Thanksgiving dilly rolls
Mom waking up early to get the turkey on
Dad working on keeping us warm
Complaints of “pie crusts”
My sisters and i polishing the silverware from the fancy wooden chest
Moms big turkey platter
Homemade whipped cream

Seeking out a great restaurant
Buying me a corsage
You were so sweet
And it was only our third date
One of my favorite memories

Sitting in the living room
Playing with blocks
Mom & dad talking
Telling me, my block castle was amazing and that I was talented

Playing my first MMORPG game, Meridian with my dad

Childhood birthdays
Skateway & grand union
Pick ups and drop off
February 9th skating rink
Cold air and crunchy snow
Mom made cupcakes
Candy hearts
covered under a sheet of foil
Lacing skates & shoe leather   
 popcorn
Hot dogs & spilt soda
Birthday candles & chocolate cake
Giant hand puppets & plushie skates 

“Honk before you go through”
honk the horn near the railroad tracks 

Duckweed, frogs toads and salamanders
Long poles with small nets
Barefoot in the  reeds
earth touched algae, moss covered rocks
Fearing the dam and what might happen if I fell in
The smell of summer. Coconut scented sun tan lotion and Shasta soda
Hunting for salamanders and catching frogs
Everyones second best favorite- Earl reservoir


Mom taking us in the car 
Making up stories 
giant spiders And killer squirrels
Shooting them down with finger “guns”


Regretting letting my relationship with my dad get so bad 

Playing the game make me laugh
The cool stone steps of the church basement
Roller racers in the parking lot 
Pink huffy bikes

Building a fort behind the church



Every holiday and sometimes for “Saturday night special”
My mom would make her famous, “Rumyaki”
Steak, pineapple and sauce! Sometimes with a side of rice and often served in small glass bowls.
 One of my favorites!

Turning the forsythia bush into a fort
Bringing lily of the valley bouquets to favorite teachers 

Still new
Jim & I  
closing my eyes 
A Touch of his cheek
 memorizing  his face with My fingers

The tree house that mom made 
Summer afternoon 
Dads at work 
Tools and found wood
Turning a tree into a treehouse 
Dad got home 
How, what, when?
Dumbfounded 
Hugs for everyone 



Home
Cold snowy mornings 
WHUD - Monroe Woodbury no school 
Playing with barbies in the living room
Mom making macaroni & cheese for lunch 

Hand drawn Birthday banners stretched out  across the wooden cupboard
My dad getting me a special valentines day plant 
Birthday dinners, hero sandwiches and moms meatballs 
Baked Alaska and heart shaped birthday cakes 


Listening to WHUD in January 
Waiting for the dj to announce
Monroe Woodbury school districts
Closed
Any day that the school was closed
Was a good day 

Field trips 
American heroes from jays deli 
a hostess cupcake & a bag of chips 
A note from mom
“I love you.”


Jersey Shore
Hotel on the beach 
Upstairs room 


Cold fried chicken
We were allowed to pick out a special dessert.  
Pepperidge Farm Coconuf Cake
Sunrises & sunsets
Looking for shells
Kym slept in the bathtub 

Getting bikes at Joes Fixit

Regretting the reason why my mom broke her leg
Knowing that I can’t take it back
Still crying about it



Halloween butterfly costume 
Orange & black candies 
Elementary school 
Most favorite Bear costume 
Man on hunter street who made you tell 
A joke too in order to get Halloween candy 
The year dad painted a piece of cardboard black or Grey and he went as “a wall.”
Mom always making special food for every holiday 
Chicken costume costume 

Dad memory 
Hanging off a tree to steal fruit out of truck 

Moms pop pop story 
Pop iPod would sit next to his fridge 
And still make mom get up to get him a drink from the fridge 

Bike riding with dad 
Trail behind tracks 
Lush and green 
Dad would wait because I went slow 
Point out trees 
Birds singing
Tall grass hitting our knees
The sound of a stream

Olive Garden 
Teaching you manners
Being surprised that you already knew them 
Even then you were so perfect 
My light


Summertime 
Mom snapping beans in the kitchen 
Windows are open 
I’m asking for a snack 

Planting
 old boards across be garden beds 
Watch for weeds 
Finger length holes in the dirt
Giant pink and white bean seeds 
Drop the seed and plant another 

Lunch at mall in nj
Mom & pop pop 
Same restaurant every time 



Finding dad on the mail route
Forgotten lunch 

Mom & pops house 
Nj 
Red brick house
Liverwurst 
Crumb cake 


3rd grade 
Shoe tying 
Dad teaching 
Wood stove is warm 

Watching tadpoles
Kissing you in the rain
Nothing else mattered 


Hudson highlands 
Birthday parties 
Volunteering 
Crow snuck in the bathroom 

End of school year parties 
Egg toss 
Hot dogs 
Pools of green jello 
Water balloons 
Powdered donut 


Hanging out in mom and dads room to watch tv. Mom always smelled like ivory soap. Ivory now reminds me of her.
 One time we were watching the muppets show, dad snuck out and bought neopolitan ice cream. It was a surprise!!

Amish country 
All you can eat Amish food
Fire works 
Cold pool water
Hotel & a white picket fence  

School
Hiding out in the nurses office or sitting in back of the school library, hiding from the world
Cafeteria had the best chicken patty sandwiches ever!!
circling the food that I liked on the school cafeteria calendar 

Christmas
Growing up dad would come home on Christmas with all these cards and packages filled with cookies and candies from the mail route. We would put them on the middle of the kitchen table and open all of them while sampling some of the goodies that people made. The wood stove was warm and we were all happy, there was a buzz of excitement and I loved every second of it 

Washington DC 
I ate my lunch before we left highland mills 
Smithsonium museum
Air & space museum 
Days inn


North Carolina
Mom and pop gave us cabbage patch kids 
Discovery zone
Days inn
Kristi holding walking sticks 
Madagascar Hissing Cockroaches 
Kids menu 
We all wanted lobster 


Crafting in the kitchen 
mom &dads house, 
my back getting warm by the wood stove
The kitchen smells like warm stew 


Vacation bible school 
Eating cookies in the white trailer
Small paper cups 
Warm apple juice 

The smell of pink bubble gum 
Comics in the wrapper 
Bazooka joe

skate way 
Spilled Popcorn and hotdogs 
The small kids rink at the one side of the roller rink 
Ladies skate
Couples skate 
Dj was cool 
80’s the music 

Playing “animal rescue” games at the apple tree near the streaM in the woods 

Being a junior lifeguard st the pond and reservoir. 
 Camping at the pond, covered in ketchup and mustard. 
Camp fire and lifeguards trying to jump out of the woods to scare us 

Roller racers in the church parking lot, playing the game “make me laugh.”

Roller racers in the ccd building for a haunted house.

The carnival swe threw in the church parking lot 

My bear costume  
my mummy costum
Walking around elementary school in  monarch butterfly costume 
Going trick or treating in the elementary school 
The harvest fair, winning “fish” and the Fresh Food  buffet 

Talking to Mrs Liles about nature end the nature camp in main  and the terrarium 

Waiting for the ice cream man at the pond 
The cold floors and hot air of the pavilion 
Arts & crafts 
The smell of burnt grass, sun screen & chlorine
Knock hockey 
Barefoot and looking for something crayfish on the creek
Capture the flag games
Wet towels
Marco Polo on the raft
Dibble dabble sticks 
Remember the secret path from the pond to the commons, Kym would take it to work when she was working at the commons. 
Lifeguards making noise pretending to be monsters 

Synchro show 
Fancy bathing suits 

Animal auctions
One Halloween we got a bunch of pumpkins
We carved them on the brown deck. 

Barbara memory
Tying pop pajama pants in knots
Foyer with mailbox, color picture
Hide them around foyer and tell everyone 
They have mail 


Mom waking me up early in the morning, 
It was dark out. She showed me the morning star. Every time I wake up early just to find the morning star 

Mom & dad 
Cape Ann 
Elephant ears 

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