My Dear Sweet Alice..
I am listening to classical music right now, its running through my veins with hopes that I might someday meet you. Do you think thats possible? Even now.. in the midst of it all. That I might bump into you someday.. that my hand might accidently brush up against yours in some fatal mishap. Oh.. if only someday that might actually happen. . .Destiny if you can hear me, step in, bump your gentle self into my life, push fate out of the way.. kick her and make her never look at me again. Put her in the corner, stand her in a box. Tie her to a chair and cure her of her fatal sickness. Destiny listen to me, I have somthing to say. Destiny! I cannot scream any louder then I am right now. I am standing at the top of the stairs, I've climbed the highest tree, Can you hear me now? I've called the operator, I looked for you in the yellow pages and have scoured the internet. I've broken my sneakers and ripped my stockings. Destiny.. please listen. I am a sick girl.. please step in here. I need your help. Please direct me to Alice.. tell him I am looking for him. Let him know that I feel him every time I step outside, that I feel his cautious breath curl up and around my body, his gentle fingers playing at the back of my hair.. I have felt him.. as summer in the coldest of winter, And kissed him as christmas in july. I have felt him a thousand times, a thousand kisses all at once. All over, all at once, dancing at dusk and waiting up until dawn, with every kiss I kiss and every wish I wish - he is there with me, inside me and around me. He is mixed in there, somwhere within the sun every morning and he is reflected in the stars at night. He is there. I blink and he is there, I close my eyes to sleep and he is there. Destiny please.. I am on my hands and knee's.. Please don't make me beg.. tell Alice, He will understand. He knows where to find me. The seat next to me is still open.. Are you still listening Destiny? Am I making myself clear? Are my words still straight and my sentences still structured? I'll grant your wishes destiny, I will be good forever. I wont swear and I promise to always eat my vegetables.. listen, I promise on everything! I will be good from now on. I won't ever swear and I will be nice to everyone. I will smile all the time. Just tell him. Let my message be heard. I am getting horse.. I cannot possibly shout any louder. My throat hurts and this old carpet is making me itch..I cant fight this much longer - please Destiny, before I completly fade away.. please tell him. Tell him about me.. tell him I am silly and my socks don't match either. Let him know that I like bubbles and picnics on city rooftops. I have so much to say to him.. Tell him about my garden behind the shed, and walking barefoot in the fountains...Destiny..Hey? are you there? hello? have I said to much? Destiny? Hello?
