4:22. Going in on the Out.

4:22. It looks like I won't be at work for awhile, doctor doesn't think its a good idea that I go back for awhile. Feels good to be so sick. Hey the Sun's still out. Theres tree's to climb. The spring frogs are out and theres a million and one stars to be counted. I promise I won't be bored. Even if I am not here, I promise I won't be bored.Its just that well.. if they end up do putting me away, then THEN I will be bored. I suppose I could write all day. write to my hearts content all while sipping my salt-free broth and happily slurping my sugar free jello through a straw. I could lay in my bed and dream of alice and of his summertime smell. I was thinking that I miss him. Like just miss him everytime. Fate has stepped in and has fumbled my life again. The right sun on the wrong day. Everytime I am on a train, he is on the plane above me. All those times I take the bus he is sitting on some ship... I am in the cab right next to his, I get off the subway and he gets on. Missing each other by mere inches, a fragment in time. A minute, a second.. just a tick tick ticking away.. Fate, Fate Fading away. Forgetting. Damn her. Give me back my dreams. I have been waiting so long. Whether to cry or scream. Scream I should think. Although with me I cannot scream without crying. Bad fate. I am having some angry feelings about this so-called fate girl. She isn't a nice person. She did this, Fate did this. I blame her you know? As I go out on the in and he is going in on the out... Always going out on the in.