I’m sad tonight. I haven’t felt this in awhile, but tonight I’m sad. I’m actually scared. I’m scared for my family in New York and I’m scared for my family here. I wonder if they know how much I love them? I hope they do. I mean they have to right?
I’m sad that they are afraid. There’s an underly tone of fright that’s haunting their sentences when I talk to them. I’m useless here, they can’t see or touch me. I can’t give them a hug, like I said before I’m useless. I’ve said if before, but 2020 isn’t going to be a good year. I keep reminding myself, I’ll see them again - in this life or the next one.
Oh, if you’re reading this and see them? Tell them I loge them. Remind them that they are my world.
This is a collection of journal entries. A compilation of thoughts that I have written in the margins of books, words scribbled out on the back of paper napkins and sentences taken from the lines of an old notebook. I doubt this will ever be read, But if you happen to stumble across it? Please be careful. Its all I have..
Happy and Always
I wake up in the morning, only to be sad I awake again. I don't wish to be here, I live in constant, chronic agony. I have lost years ...
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I woke up today around 3am. I tried to go back to sleep, drifting in and out of a conscience state. I woke up today following a night of s...
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I found love years ago, last month last week, and over the weekend. I found love today and I’ll find it tomorrow together, forever, and alw...
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U You You are gone But you will never Ever Be Forgotten Mr. Christopher Larkin