You heard it here first! Today has been a good day. Let me repeat TODAY HAS BEEN A GOOD DAY!!!!
Why? Well let me tell you...
1. I convinced my doctor to give me my prescription early. That’s always good!
2. My health insurance PAID for it! Which means, I didn’t need to spend $75 on them.
3. I had a good talk with my mom, she seemed happy. We had a long chat about good things. It made me feel less lonely and I felt like I didn’t dominate the conversation, I tend to do that sometimes and I don’t realize it until the conversation ends. I found out that my dad liked the T-shirt I got him. (My parents took photos) he wasn’t smiling in the picture, but I think it had to do with the nature of his shirt, (I got him a grumpy T-shirt) I could see his eyes were smiling and that’s what gave it away ☺️ I am very happy he liked it :)
4. I had a spine injection yesterday, I didn’t think it worked. They’ve never worked before, I have had over 30 of them - which leads me to #5
5. I didn’t know it, I sure as hell didn’t plan it but I took less then 1/2 of my pain meds today! I didn’t realize it until I was in bed and asked for my night time pain meds. This means, the shot yesterday WORKED!!! it also means I am not an addict. That I really do only take pain meds when I’m hurting. I had pain meds all day, they were available right next to me and in my purse. They were easily accessible. I didn’t even think about them. I guess I really do only take them because I’m hurting. I’m not a scary opioid addict. I’m not like the addicts I see on tv, I’m not the person my doctors warn me about. I’m not the person people are afraid I will become. I’m not the person I afraid of becoming. After being on pain medication for over 6 years, I am always afraid I am going to turn into a scary addict and lose everything to the drug.
So me not needing the pain meds today, while having the meds so close to me? I didn’t need them. I didn’t take them and I can’t stop smiling about it.
6. Today I found out that I am not the person people warn me about. I Kerri Lyn am not a drug addict. . This made me happy. This made my heart happy. For once, I am falling asleep tonight smiling.
