Thursday

crescendo of wrong

There’s a queazy, uneasy feeling that’s brewing in my belly. It’s been like this since yesterday. Something bad is going to happen, it’s a crescendo of wrong. Something isn’t right. The stars aren’t lined up...
It’s about to happen - but what?

I can feel it in my heart. It’s right here, right in there. Center straight and a little left of my soul. What did I do? Who have I hurt?  There’s karma here, karma has something to do with it. This is some kind of a payback. Today was a good day. No - today was a great day.
The universe doesn’t allow girls like me to have days like this. Good days without some kind of retribution.
Is this a continuation of yesterday. Does everyone know I love them?
I’m sorry... I can’t say it enough.

I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Shit. I need Xanax.

Happy and Always

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