Friday

Figures.

So, I’m leaving for Seattle tomorrow. I just took my sleeping meds and I’m hoping I actually can sleep tonight. Speaking of sleep, it hasn’t been going that good. I’m always just a thought away from something bad and I know when I get back the counseling work will really begin. I feel like I’m about to take a photo and this is my my “before” pic, I don’t know who I will be in the end. Whoever I end up being, I hope I am kind. I also hope they whatever comes out of this, is positive. I am already remembering more than I wanted too, there’s so much shame.
AIDS
Murder
Death.
This isn’t for the faint of heart.
Think happy. I think I need a unicorn chaser...

Happy and Always

  I wake up in the morning, only to be sad I awake again. I don't wish to be here, I live in constant, chronic agony. I have lost years ...