Where are you now? I'll always want to know. Even if its just the breeze carrying the thought of you, Something whispered and barely audible, Mixed in the words of my favorite song. I hit repeat on my ipod, Just to make it last. Its ended to soon, I wish I didn't let you get close. It would be so much easier if you had just left when I told you goodbye. If you had just gone..
It felt so good to feel..
But now, as I write this. There is a little bit of you, mixed up with some of me. I know you won't be here in three years. Hell, I think you know it too. But for now, I am going to hold on to that. Remembering that, I have to swallow these thoughts just to breathe.
Do you mind then if I believe that for awhile? That I will someday meet you and that someday will bring us together. You'll smile and I'll smile, For once we would be the only things that mattered. Perhaps that day, will be the day we will see the world, Backpacking through Europe - Just to do something we have never done before.
Please,I know I am saying to much, But can I keep you just a little bit longer? No one will know, Just you, me and these dreams.
So very bad at goodbyes.
Its jumbled and I'm barely breathing..
Its to many words, With so much left unsaid. I have to get it out.. Just a few more minutes, I promise. I just need a plan. A what to do next and how do we get there scenario. . Perhaps I'll turn you into a wish. A star for the nights when lying out on the driveway, Far above everything. Above the thunder that scares and the things make us want to hide. Above the tree's and the houses with one to many cats, far far away from loud cars and squeaky old faucets that only seem to drip. I shall keep you there, hold you dear there. That way even if you are gone, Even if I can't seem to find you, No matter how hard I look or how loud I call your name. I will always know where you are. Wherever you are, Whenever I need you. You are there. You'll always be there. I'll never have to lose you again.. Its the only thing I could ever give you. So even if your not around to read this. Even if we have ever only spoken a different kind of speak - Know that I am thinking of you..
I'll always be thinking of you.
