Monday

your caught in my throat.

Dear ... ?

to everyone I have ever loved. I apologize, I am sorry for not being who you thought I was, for making you dream or even wish on somthing that never was. It wasn't you, despite what I made you feel. It was me. Its always been me. Right after I liked you and as you died I made you a promise. I said I'd never forget, that I'd always keep you. So there you are, a small piece of something stuck somewhere inside of me, a permanence caught in my throat.. I see you in my eyes and hear you in my ears. Your always with me. I hope this doesn't frighten you. But I think of you often. I don't mean to offend. This is somthing that just needs to be said. Now that its been said I can use this oppertunity to write you somtime.

Is anyone still here?

Happy and Always

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