Saturday

We know what we are, but not what we may become - shakespeare

nothing left.I was ringing up this sweet old couple today and as they bickered of the the partially fractured china set that was on sale. $29.99 - 10% off with the in store coupon. It struck me. This whole love thing? the whole lets grow old together idea? that deplorable thing that people do when they pretend to like each other, that idea. I find it absurd. burn the house, forget the white fence, 2.5 kids - theres to many out there already, stop the screaming and the 3 course dinners. Sex on sundays, meatloaf on tuesdays, toasters popping and burnt coffee.. happy dogs and starched white collers, clean linen bleached to bloody perfection, scrubbed ring fingers blistered raw. How would you like that cooked? Would you like a second helping? oh honey...no.please stop. your hurting me. sad laughscomplacent sighsMarital bliss.I find it absurd. I'll refuse every offer leave me alonekicking punchingbiting kickingscreaminghidingyou'll never have me I'll never let you get close enough.

Happy and Always

  I wake up in the morning, only to be sad I awake again. I don't wish to be here, I live in constant, chronic agony. I have lost years ...