Saturday

no work today..

I completely did not feel like going to work today, I've been going out so much lately that I havent really been taking care of myself. Its seemingly been like one big party. Its crazy because I really even haven't been connecting with the people I am going out with, its just something to do. Get out of the house, keep busy, its a stay distracted kind of a thing. Damn my room is messy. Anyways.. so ya. I miss all those little secret places back in ny. There isnt many places to do that here. Its very difficult to be anonymous in a place like Santa Cruz.

Happy and Always

  I wake up in the morning, only to be sad I awake again. I don't wish to be here, I live in constant, chronic agony. I have lost years ...