You. Its always been you. Always been about you. You in my life, you in my dreams. I start my mornings off with you and end with you in my sleep.
Its 3:30pm. I started work today at 2. This is the first i've had a chance to write. Write is what I shall do. . by the way I am little bit grumpy today. My tummy hurts. I ate to much. On top of that I gained 5 pounds.. Maybe I gained more? but 5 is all I am going to tell you. Geez.. boss just called me on the trusted in-store intercom - time to hang up clothes, I am becoming quite proficant with a hanger. 3:47 - seven more hours left. This is going to take all my stamina, my self control, every last drop of courage if I am going to make it to 10:30. I must do this, Kerri if you can do this you can do anything. . but you must believe! Believe in the power of you! ( motivational speaking has become my retail forte)
3:51 Crud-nugget, I have to pee. Its not bad yet. Wispy Waterfalls. Having to go pee reminds me of Wispy waterfalls. 4:17. Urination, Urination, UrinationUrinationUrination. I still have to pee. OH MY GOD. I HAVE TO PEE. I wish I had a brick.. or maybe 2 bricks. My boss just came over and asked me to do somthing, Which bricks? What am I talking about? No wait, I remember. I wish I had a special power so that whenever I wanted a brick - one would appear. Think of the walls I could build with that! walls, houses and high towers with brick lined moats. Suburban houses with brick lined streets with just enough brick so dandalions can peek out through the cracks. Baby its all good.. Baby its Brick-a-licious.. baby oh baby oh baby
4:30. Trying not to think about peeing, but in my not thinking about peeing I ended up writing a poem about it.
Ode to the Pee Gods
Bless me oh Lord with a healthy stream
Give my potty a shiny gleam
and make my toilet paper a soft paupers dream.
5:35. The sweet pee of relief. My 15 minute break, even here sitting in a break room. Surrounded by happy kitten posters screaming for me to Hang in There.. and Rainbows blessing me with blinky cloudless smiles... Frolicking puppies and Gold Stars exclaiming small points of good luck. My diet coke is flat and I am in need of a beer. A flask would be good, gin would be better. I like em cold.
5:45. I like this pen better. Its black. black is back is black..
OK.. I need a job. Resume after resume? Dozens a week. You know I should have stayed in SF. I had a job there. An apt, free health care, Hotel stays and fresh sushi. Plane rides and languid kisses.. I miss it terribly.. just what happend to romance anyways?
Its 6:00 and I forgot what I was going to say?
7:00 I'll be crossing you with style someday.. Let me stand here awhile and a dream a bit. I'll crossing you with style ..I'll be standing there on some standing night, just standing there at my register, book in hand. You'll walk by and notice me. You ask me what I am reading, because you read it to - read it just last week. I'll be crossing you with style. You ask me my name and what I like to do. I tell you about my cat named kitten and how I dream of going to the biggest city, to climb the highest buildings all just to blow soap bubbles down and drink wine that reminds me of sweet summertime june berries. If only wishes were kisses! So he smiles and I sigh.. .. ...for I know he will be crossing me with style someday. someday anyways.
8:04 smiles and strawberries.
I think I wouldnt mind going crazy. But only if you would come with me.
" come to me in my dreams so that by day I shall be well again "
Fish sticks on tuesdays, art therapy, Jello on saturdays.. popscicle sticks and paper mache airplanes.. dream lovers and psycho babble.."
come to me in my dreams so that by day I shall be well again.. for then the night will more then pay for the hopeless longing of the day"
What do crazy people dream about anyways? Quiddity I should think.
8:27 two 1/2 more hours. I need to pee again. Pee, it feels so good coming down. This journal shold be dedicated to my ever eternal quest to pee. Speaking of pee. Ever have to pee so bad your teeth hurt? Screw you pee. Dumb dumb stupid pee. I hate you pee. PEE PEE PEE. It the Urination game. I am grossing myself out. Pee is yello and pee is yucky.pop goes the world.
Piss clear my friends - piss clear.
