I tried to do more & take less. Talk less, listen more... I was hoping if would be better for everyone. I was hoping someone would notice. So much for that. I volunteered to do the Christmas grocery shopping, picked up everything everyone needed. How did I get thanked? They went into my room, normally this wouldn’t be a big deal. But I had everyone’s Xmas gifts out in the open, they didn’t ask, didn’t apologize nor was it mentioned at all to me. I had to find that out on my own, when I saw something was missing.
Thanks family! Love the fucking respect. My sister was an absolute bitch to me. Why? I went Christmas shopping, apparently there was stupid “limit” on how much everyone could spend. So. I spent over 600 on plane tickets, 400 on pet sitter and another couple hundred on the car rental. We had to rent the car because we were bringing my parents to the rental house. Oh and we all chipped in 500 for the house rental.
So my family, They all live in the state and had no transportation costs. Can I complain? No. Can I say hey, can we not have rules at Christmas? Buy, do, give what you want.
Can I do or say anything? Fuck no. I don’t have a voice.
Hell, I can’t even eat the way I want. My very broken sister shoots me dirty looks every time I put something in my mouth. She belittles & bullies me. She devalues me. It hurts me to my core. Unfortunately, she has always done it. I’ve been beat, pinched, slapped, pushed out of a moving car, Publicly ridiculed and disrespected my entire life by her. I can’t eat when she is around and I can’t laugh. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing. She will find a reason to put me down for it.
Hey kym? You’re a rockstar! Kick ass on alienating me again! Way to go for treating me like shit. You are amazing at what you do and being a bully is what you do best. You give me shit for moving out of ny, yet you’ve bullied me my entire life. Even as an adult, you’re still an asshole. You have brought nothing to my life.
The world sees you as being golden, You and Kristi stick up for one another and I am forever out numbered. I know I am unliked. Kristi talks to me because mom asks her too. Kym only talks to me during Christmas. How can I feel so lonely when I am surrounded by family?
Thanks family! Love the fucking respect. My sister was an absolute bitch to me. Why? I went Christmas shopping, apparently there was stupid “limit” on how much everyone could spend. So. I spent over 600 on plane tickets, 400 on pet sitter and another couple hundred on the car rental. We had to rent the car because we were bringing my parents to the rental house. Oh and we all chipped in 500 for the house rental.
So my family, They all live in the state and had no transportation costs. Can I complain? No. Can I say hey, can we not have rules at Christmas? Buy, do, give what you want.
Can I do or say anything? Fuck no. I don’t have a voice.
Hell, I can’t even eat the way I want. My very broken sister shoots me dirty looks every time I put something in my mouth. She belittles & bullies me. She devalues me. It hurts me to my core. Unfortunately, she has always done it. I’ve been beat, pinched, slapped, pushed out of a moving car, Publicly ridiculed and disrespected my entire life by her. I can’t eat when she is around and I can’t laugh. It doesn’t matter what I’m doing. She will find a reason to put me down for it.
Hey kym? You’re a rockstar! Kick ass on alienating me again! Way to go for treating me like shit. You are amazing at what you do and being a bully is what you do best. You give me shit for moving out of ny, yet you’ve bullied me my entire life. Even as an adult, you’re still an asshole. You have brought nothing to my life.
The world sees you as being golden, You and Kristi stick up for one another and I am forever out numbered. I know I am unliked. Kristi talks to me because mom asks her too. Kym only talks to me during Christmas. How can I feel so lonely when I am surrounded by family?
I regret every time I’ve ever asked her for anything.
This trip is making me realize, that my sisters are not worth my effort. I wish I realized this sooner.
