Saturday

Life Part 1.Part 2. Part 3. Part 4…

These are of bits and pieces of my life. Snipets of memor, both good and bad. I write them down as they come to me. Just a few words written quickly. Haphazardly. Theres no order, nor reason and spelling doesn’t count.

Some days I can’t tell if it’s the first day of summer or the last day of October. I’m  buzzing inside and everything feels like a party

Me 
Childhood 
The pond
Dusk
With mom and maybe my sisters
The best cheeseburger I’ve ever eaten 
 

Playing animal rescue games 

scrambling around the little apple tree in the woods behind our house

It was right by the little stream 

that flowed behind the barn


Aunt Pam 
Used to bring me stamps 
From Nepera Chemicals 
Childhood 
Steaming 
Cutting 
Stamps 
For my collection 


Dad
Lunch time
Corned beef in a can 
Miracle whip
White bread 
And sometimes
A snowball 

During the age of elementary  
Late Spring
Summer
Early Fall 
Exploring 
Wandering 
Backyard swamps 
Hopping over
Climbing around
Sitting on giant clumps of plants
Twisting and braiding 
The long blades of grass 
Pretending it was a hair salon
Playing 
Singing birds
The sweet smell of clean dirt



PBS phreak 
Quick visit 
Toronto
Crappy dance club
His moms magazine color 
purple house
Disappeared 
Mental home 
Dial tone 


Not my memory 
But one of Jim’s 
Jimmy
Kindergarten
Confusion 
Hey  Teacher
Where is my cubby hole? 
Your name is James 
James Peter 
She said 
And he learned his name


Hudson highlands
Saturday mornings
Childhood 
Volunteer 
The owls that fainted 
Talking crows 
Box turtles and frog habitats 
Ducks waddle
Under the bathroom stall 
Because you're depressed they said 
Because don't smile like you used too
Less judge 
More love 
I was 11 I think?


Third grade
Fourth grade 
First kiss 
Corey hogsthurst? 
First name is correct 
Last is close
His mom came home 
And I was toast!  
She yelled 
I ran home
And never spoke of it again.


1st grade
Maybe 2nd 
Central valley elementary 
I waited for kimberlite
In the cafeteria 
I forced myself to eat slow 
Slow
Slower 
Just so I could eat lunch with her 
Ah sisters..




Baked Alaska
Special birthday 




Clown parades
Learning the circus
Performing ss a clown
Hot summers 
Walking parades
Red noses bled
Melting
Onto white cheeks
Heat stroke summer
Clown parades 
The best kind of parade
  

Where did my dad keep his old uniforms? 
Above the upstairs bathroom.
More on this later.

Christmas
Childhood
Heart awakens 
Santa
Family 
Grandmas house 
Breakfast 
Mcdonalds gift certificates
But when I'm 20?

Not mine, but my mother's
Wore gardenia to the prom
Danced with flowers
The scent remains   

Sometimes on Saturdays 
Childhood
Walking into soatewat 
Handing them crumpled up dollar bills 
Telling them my suzlacimg up skates the smell of popcorn and soda
Loud 80’s pop music
Holding onto the carpeted guard rails
Getting my footing 
People spin past me 
I go slow
Try not to fall
A few hours past
Mom finds us
Until next Saturday 
Special of course 

Christmas caroling
Papers of sheet music 
Cold noses
Warm hot chocolate 
Silent night 
And always out of tune


Orange Plaza
Caldors
Scary haunted Halloween cassette tape
Mom is paying bill 
Always baskin Robbin’s 


Elementary School
Saturday afternoon 
Moving small rocks from the large rock pile in the drive way
Dad is teaching us old marching songs from the Marine Corps
All PG of course 

Friday nights - anytime if the year
Mario’s
Sitting in the couch 
Watching cops with mom
Chicken Frances and rigatoni 
Pizza with peppers, sometimes mushrooms 
- extra cheese please
Tiramisu, cannolis and napoleons
Warm summer nights
Frosty winters 
Pizza box humidity
Payday 
Everyone’s favorite night of the week 


Cotton candy
Popcorn
Sausage and peppers
Fancy lights 
And soda stands
County fairs 
Summertime carnivals
Family time and  holding hands
It was a yearly treat 
And we went to them all 
Grahamsville 
Ulster
Orange and 
Sussex too 
Belt booths
Hat stands
Sales on whatnot 
Tshirts and disc man’s 
Pamphlet pavilions
Free swag and stickers 
Cable tv or satellite sound?
Solar power
Clean water 
It’s good for the ground. 
“Do you want one?”
“Here take one”
“Hey! Look at me”
I’m only 12. 

There’s miles  of canvas 
Fresh manure, hot pavements 
4-H and Ferris wheels
A pavilion of cows
The Kiwanis yell, “BBQ chicken! We have dark meat! 
Church tents of burgers, god bless you. Don’t forget the fries 

Ghost trains and neons  Screams
Mirrored mazes and an alpine slide

I was there, 
All in it.  
Takings it in
Learning in stride. 

I remember the foot traffic
The cherry dips and Funnel cake
Amish donuts 
Wine stands and beer gardens

Gunning the engines and cheers from the crowd 
Joys of laughter 
Me, I’m 11
Maybe 12
We went every year
My family 
Those times, that pavement 
Ferris Wherls l








Memory. 
Sitting in the grass 
With mom, kym and kristi 
Making flower chains with dandelions and bugle weed. 
Sweet summers
Life was free 



My mom: 
One of my moms memories
Babysitting uncle Markie
At the Jersey shore and baiting hooks 
Sand worm bites 
Days spend 

A letter to my dad reguarding a future family trip to the Virginia shore  8/9/22

Are you ready for next week? 
Fishy!
Oh fishy! 
Here little fishy, fishy! 
Hahah! 
What kind of lures are you bringing? Do you have a pole to use off the shore? 
You know, I have a memory of us going to the Jersey shore when we were kids. 
I remember you fishing from the shore. I remember watching you and I remember How peaceful you looked. It was a moment where everything was perfect. The sun was setting and The waves were low and a bit choppy. The sun was setting. Everything was quiet and still. It was a serene moment and I remember it like yesterday. 
You had the long end of the surf caster stuck in the sand and a beer was next to you. Every so often you’d break that silence, wade out a little, cast and then go back to your vigil. In that moment, I don’t think it was about fishing, it was simply about being. 
We’ve stayed at the shore a few times and we always stayed at the same little hotel. This place was right next to the sand dunes and our room was always on the 2nd floor. 
Mom brought snacks and homemade fried chicken, she once got us each a little Pepperidge Farms cake, they were frozen. I remember you picked out coconut…




Summeer
Front yard 
Mixing muffins
Dusting treasures
Sitting in the shade 
Kym sells potholders 
Mom sells blueberry muffins
 Waiting for customers 
Garage sale Saturday’s 


Aldo cacciole 
Threw  kyms crest big wheel
 into the creek near Adams street
Dad saved the big wheel

Sunday morning 
Record player 
Oh what a beautiful morning plays
I’m asking for it to be played again and again 
Moms in the kitchen 
Dads in the garden 
Happiness grows here 

I’m a child
Someone playing with my toes
This little piggy went to the market 
This littie piggy stayed home
This littl piggy had roast beef
This little piggy had none 
This little piggy went wee wee wee all the way home 


I’m young
My dad playing his guitar
He was wearing a turtle neck 
Scratchy brown plaid couch 
He was playing softly 
I was listening 

Saturday’s 
Driving to Jersey
A visit to “mom” and “pops” house 
Kym & Kristi  sitting beside me 
Sharing sips from the same can of soda 
We’ve entered a land of hummels
Their house smells of coffee and cake 
Rye bread and liverwurst
Mom misses them

Bowl-O-Fun 
Bowling and bumper lanes
Soda and popcorn
Family & birthdays 
Weekend afternoons 
I was never good at it 
But damn it was fun! 

Young
Kristi & I 
Running around the dining room table 
Mom telling us to stop 
Kristi falls 
Bites her lip 

Whenever mom would make us fish for dinner, we were always told “watch out for bones!” And given a slice of bread. I still don’t understand the bread part, but it’s a find and funny memory of mine. 

I was spit on, yelled at, tripped and
pushed down stairs during my teenage years at school.
My sister Kym was very popular. It was At school I was known 
as ”Kim’s sister.”
It was ironic twist of fate I was spit on, yelled at, tripped and
Pushed down stairs and out of moving cars at home
By Kym.

Proudly Making the junior varsity volleyball team. Only to find out,
I made the team due to Kym  being a star athlete on the varsity team
She had been For the previous years. They expected me to be the Same.
I am a different person.
I quit the team. 


Watching “The monkees  ” with Kristi
Dancing around the room
It was one of Kristi’s favorites

My first sleep over
We ate pizza
Jean Seals house
Mom got me a special red & white striped nightgown
I felt special and it was really nice  

End of school year parties
Kids and us
Make your own Sunday’s
Hot dogs
Bus sing a longs of sha an na na  & hey hey hey’d
My mom waving
Dj’d Dance parties and kyms birthday came later 
Bagelewhiches - American combo style were the best! 

Bringing my grandma a gift
Jars of gypsy moth caterpillars 
She pretended to like it 

Growing up
After dinner
Sometimes before lunch
My parents playing records
45’s
78’s
Dancing around the dining room
Trying to keep up
Spinning and twirling
clapping to the beat
Singing along
This is my family
This is my happy place


Ocean air
Summer vacation
Boardwalk
Stale ketchup and mini golf
Midway rides
Dad and his fried clams
Mom and skeeball
Ticket prize glory


Summer dance
The pond
Learning to dance alone
Perfume and chlorine 
Waiting for mom
a happy wave 
Sometimes dad
Pick us up behind the pond
By the big rocks 
Always by the big rock 
The great Summers of hope

The pond after hours
Crowds were gone
Wading in the cool water
Mom being there made it Magical
Pizza or burgers
The days Laughter going down 
 the  sunset right behind it 


Groos shoe store
Monroe
Between the Twin lakes and the lumber yard
White sneakers & Buster browns
Keds I think
Blessed with big feet
Nothing ever fit

Joes Fixit
First bikes
Mountain bikes
And every bike sincerity’s I am a frrr tree t
Ice skates
Roller skate


Dancing
Dining rooms and record players
Mom and dad
Dad & mom
Doo wop and folk
Show tunes and old country
Mom telling us about the waltz with pop pop
Leading and following
Right after Saturday n ugh special
Sometime in between


My teenage years
Watching “Brain Games” on HBO
Eating a turkey sandwich
Giving myself a silent “pat on the back” every time I got one right
- Brain Games is now over -

Fathers Day, Dads birthday. Dads day 
before amazon 
Mom, kristi & went to New Windsor
Small red brick house 
Nice old man sold nice new flags 
A flag for the marines
A flag for history
Just to get something
For my dads something day

My teenaged self waiting for the “Shwanns” man to arrive
Combing thru the catalog
Picking out items & Marking up the pages 
Chicken nuggets and breakfast pizzas
Iced cream cones and fruit punch
I loved those deliverie

Saint Patrick’s Church
Before the parking lot
Tree hollows & forts
Wild grapes fresh & tart
Summers and winters
Walking slow around the bend

Charles chips
Pretzels, potato, sour cream
Ridged, crispy or plain
Giant tins
Mustard color tin cans with brown lettering
Nice men in crisp brown uniforms
Delivering once or twice a month
Driving those nice brown trucks



Saturday mornings
Saturday morning cartoons
The brown couch behind us and a rust colored rug beneath us
Mom making us fruit plates
Snacks were a plenty
Happiness


An everyday thought -
Growing fears
Bright yellow school bus
Elementary school getting closer
Reminding me & telling myself school is the temple of doom
Avoiding people is like avoiding the traps
Indiana Jones, kerri adams
Giant rock falling
Getting close to schooL
Giant rock rolling towards me
Avoid the traps - avoid the prople!


Synchronized swimming
Crowds
Lights and sound
Water
Performing in a hot pool
Matching bathing suits
Stoned on chlorine
Music makes it alright
Trying to remember my moves
Pretending to get it right
Finding my family in the bleachers
A smile & a small wave
Take a deep breath
Finding them always makes it right

January
February
The coldest
Darkest months of the year
The crackly sound of a wood stove
Drip drying gloves and snow caked hats
Having just come in from shoveling snow
That great feeling of getting warm again

Sneaking out
Late  night
Cold Mid January wanderings
The roads are empty
The town is asleep under a blanket of snow
The sky is full of a thousand stars
I came out here for this
Just to see this
The twinkling blink of stars
A thousand of them
Who knew that this would be the loudest sound,  I’d ever hear
A continual reverberation
The sound of silence




School dances
Pre-dance dresses
Hairspray filling the bathroom
Kym telling to “sit like a boy” just so she could do my hair
Mom dropping us off
Bubbling over with excitement
Dim lights in a sweaty gym
Dancing - loving every second of it
Getting lost in the throngs of “after the dance “
Moms wave of a hand  - mom found us
Mom always finding us


Behind the elementary school
Behind the Central Valley public library
There’s a giant stream, protected by a chain link fence
Sometimes I’d sneak back there
Catching frogs
Watching turtles
Willing to risk it for an grade school  punishment

Warm days
Bare-feet turned cold by water
The smell of Chlorine
The sound of an ice cream truck Kids playing
Swatting mosquitoes
Empty peanut butter jars turned terrarium
Moving rocks
Catching crayfish
Bliss
Late July - summer at the pond

Wooden spoons
Mixing bowls
Flour, eggs milk
Summer mornings
Winter afternoons
Weekends
Weekdays
home made jams and sweet jellies
Cinnamon
Sugar
And sometimes peanut butter
But always butter
My mom made roll’em up pancakes
That’s fancy for “crepes”
As many as we could eat!
It was and will always be a favorite
I miss it terribly and what I wouldn’t give for
just one more “roll’em up pancake ❤️

Teaching me that a little mustard can be a good thing
Lucky charms and strawberries is like magic
BBQ sauce doesn’t have to be spicy
And that global table is never a good thing 

For the longest time, I thought the best way to “catch” a man is to make him a good meal. I was so clueless
Preschool memory
Water table 
Snacks in brown paper bags 
Cheese crackers and Juice in little wax paper cups
Mrs Elniki

Slumber parties
Sleep overs
Pizza from Jangos
The best make your own Sunday’s ever
Renting movies from block buster or the video store near the old grand union
Scary movies like “April’s fools day”and dads forever eternal question of, “Is it a new movies,”

Playing Joust upstairs in mom & dads room
Playing zork and getting scared in there too

Thanksgiving dilly rolls
Mom waking up early to get the turkey on
Dad working on keeping us warm
Complaints of “pie crusts”
My sisters and i polishing the silverware from the fancy wooden chest
Moms big turkey platter
Homemade whipped cream

Seeking out a great restaurant
Buying me a corsage
You were so sweet
And it was only our third date
One of my favorite memories

Sitting in the living room
Playing with blocks
Mom & dad talking
Telling me, my block castle was amazing and that I was talented

Playing my first MMORPG game, Meridian with my dad

Childhood birthdays
Skateway & grand union
Pick ups and drop off
February 9th skating rink
Cold air and crunchy snow
Mom made cupcakes
Candy hearts
covered under a sheet of foil
Lacing skates & shoe leather   
 popcorn
Hot dogs & spilt soda
Birthday candles & chocolate cake
Giant hand puppets & plushie skates 

“Honk before you go through”
honk the horn near the railroad tracks 

Duckweed, frogs toads and salamanders
Long poles with small nets
Barefoot in the  reeds
earth touched algae, moss covered rocks
Fearing the dam and what might happen if I fell in
The smell of summer. Coconut scented sun tan lotion and Shasta soda
Hunting for salamanders and catching frogs
Everyones second best favorite- Earl reservoir


Mom taking us in the car 
Making up stories 
giant spiders And killer squirrels
Shooting them down with finger “guns”


Regretting letting my relationship with my dad get so bad 

Playing the game make me laugh
The cool stone steps of the church basement
Roller racers in the parking lot 
Pink huffy bikes

Building a fort behind the church


Every holiday and sometimes for “Saturday night special”
My mom would make her famous, “Rumyaki”
Steak, pineapple and sauce! Sometimes with a side of rice and often served in small glass bowls.
 One of my favorites!

Turning the forsythia bush into a fort
Bringing lily of the valley bouquets to favorite teachers 

Still new
Jim & I were dating 
I used to close my eyes 
And memorize his face with My finger tips. 
I never want to forget what he looked like

Home
Cold snowy mornings 
WHUD - Monroe Woodbury no school 
Playing with barbies in the living room
Mom making macaroni & cheese for lunch 

Hand drawn Birthday banners stretched out  across the wooden cupboard
My dad getting me a special valentines day plant 
Birthday dinners, hero sandwiches and moms meatballs 
Baked Alaska and heart shaped birthday cakes 


Listening to WHUD in January 
Waiting for the dj to announce
Monroe Woodbury school districts
Closed
Any day that the school was closed
Was a good day 

Field trips 
American heroes from jays deli 
a hostess cupcake & a bag of chips 
A note from mom
“I love you.”


Jersey Shore
Hotel on the beach 
Upstairs room 


Cold fried chicken
We were allowed to pick out a special dessert.  
Pepperidge Farm Coconuf Cake
Sunrises & sunsets
Looking for shells
Kym slept in the bathtub 

Getting bikes at Joes Fixit

Regretting the reason why my mom broke her leg
Knowing that I can’t take it back
Still crying about it



Halloween butterfly costume 
Orange & black candies 
Elementary school 
Most favorite Bear costume 
Man on hunter street who made you tell 
A joke too in order to get Halloween candy 
The year dad painted a piece of cardboard black or Grey and he went as “a wall.”
Mom always making special food for every holiday 
Chicken costume costume 

Dad memory 
Hanging off a tree to steal fruit out of truck 

Moms pop pop story 
Pop iPod would sit next to his fridge 
And still make mom get up to get him a drink from the fridge 

Bike riding with dad 
Trail behind tracks 
Lush and green 
Dad would wait because I went slow 
Point out trees 
Birds singing
Tall grass hitting our knees

Summertime 
Mom snapping beans in the kitchen 
Windows are open 
I’m asking for a snack 

Planting
 old boards across be garden beds 
Watch for weeds 
Finger length holes in the dirt
Giant pink and white bean seeds 
Drop the seed and plant another 

Lunch at mall in nj
Mom & pop pop 
Same restaurant every time 



Finding dad on the mail route
Forgotten lunch 

Mom & pops house 
Nj 
Red brick house
Liverwurst 
Crumb cake 


3rd grade 
Shoe tying 
Dad teaching 
Wood stove is warm 


Hudson highlands 
Birthday parties 
Volunteering 
Crow snuck in the bathroom 

End of school year parties 
Egg toss 
Hot dogs 
Pools of green jello 
Water balloons 
Powdered donut 


Hanging out in mom and dads room to watch tv. Mom always smelled like ivory soap. Ivory now reminds me of her.
 One time we were watching the muppets show, dad snuck out and bought neopolitan ice cream. It was a surprise!!

Amish country 
All you can eat Amish food
Fire works 
Cold pool water
Hotel & a white picket fence  

School
Hiding out in the nurses office or sitting in back of the school library, hiding from the world
Cafeteria had the best chicken patty sandwiches ever!!
circling the food that I liked on the school cafeteria calendar 

Christmas
Growing up dad would come home on Christmas with all these cards and packages filled with cookies and candies from the mail route. We would put them on the middle of the kitchen table and open all of them while sampling some of the goodies that people made. The wood stove was warm and we were all happy, there was a buzz of excitement and I loved every second of it 

Washington DC 
I ate my lunch before we left highland mills 
Smithsonium museum
Air & space museum 
Days inn


North Carolina
Mom and pop gave us cabbage patch kids 
Discovery zone
Days inn
Kristi holding walking sticks 
Madagascar Hissing Cockroaches 
Kids menu 
We all wanted lobster 


Crafting in the kitchen 
mom &dads house, 
my back getting warm by the wood stove
The kitchen smells like warm stew 


Vacation bible school 
Eating cookies in the white trailer
Small paper cups 
Warm apple juice 

The smell of pink bubble gum 
Comics in the wrapper 
Bazooka joe

skate way 
Spilled Popcorn and hotdogs 
80’s pop and Trying not to fall
Ladies skate
Couples skate 
Dj was cool 
80’s the music 

Playing “animal rescue” games at the apple tree near the streaM in the woods 

Being a junior lifeguard st the pond and reservoir. 
 Camping at the pond, covered in ketchup and mustard. 
Camp fire and lifeguards trying to jump out of the woods to scare us 

Roller racers in the church parking lot, playing the game “make me laugh.”

Roller racers in the ccd building for a haunted house.

The carnival swe threw in the church parking lot 

My bear costume  
my mummy costum
Walking around elementary school in  monarch butterfly costume 
Going trick or treating in the elementary school 
The harvest fair, winning “fish” and the Fresh Food  buffet 

Talking to Mrs Liles about nature end the nature camp in main  and the terrarium 

Waiting for the ice cream man at the pond 
The cold floors and hot air of the pavilion 
Arts & crafts 
The smell of burnt grass, sun screen & chlorine
Knock hockey 
Barefoot and looking for something crayfish on the creek
Capture the flag games
Wet towels
Marco Polo on the raft
Dibble dabble sticks 
Remember the secret path from the pond to the commons, Kym would take it to work when she was working at the commons. 
Lifeguards making noise pretending to be monsters 

Synchro show 
Fancy bathing suits 

Animal auctions
One Halloween we got a bunch of pumpkins
We carved them on the brown deck. 

Barbara memory
Tying pop pajama pants in knots
Foyer with mailbox, color picture
Hide them around foyer and tell everyone 
They have mail 


Mom waking me up early in the morning, 
It was dark out. She showed me the morning star. Every time I wake up early just to find the morning star 

Mom and sad 
Cape Ann 
Elephant ears

——- started this July 29,2019 ———/

Notes:
From mom:
This is the story of our very first Valentine’s Day. We worked together but weren’t dating. I had just broken my engagement and did not have any prospects for any kind of Valentine’s Day. All of a sudden I got a beautiful flower arrangement from a secret admirer. Well there was no stopping me then I went up to Dad and kept telling him he had no valentine and no one would ever send him anything anyway. Kept this up for hours. Finally decided to call the florist and find out who sent the flowers. He wouldn’t tell me  well eventually I found out it was Dad. Wasn’t he sweet and wasn’t I a brat. Lol❤️❤️

Shrinking until shrunk

This is the end of a story that I will never start writing. I used grammerky for my spelling and grammarly mistakes. But, the rest is me.  C...