Monday

not sure - just bangs

I have short hair now. Its dyed black with little bangs framing my forhead. It doesnt help much in the grand scheme of things and it cost me 50$ - cash. I often like to follow up my answers to people with the term.. " I have bangs " most dont get it. Not that it should. Its just a little thing inside of me that makes my thoughts wander and my brain smile. When I first got my hair cut, and my bangs were new. I thought maybe it would be a life changing thing.. that somehow everyone in brooklyn would notice and that somehow I would no longer be the mishapen egg girl..
on the subway.. " excuse me miss? but I can't help but admire your NEW BANGS! "
on the street.. " Hey Boo! nice BANGS! "
at the store.. " free stuff to all girls with BANGS! "
My, my.. if I think hard enough, I can imagine all of you, looking at all of me.. and my New bangs.. Oh Kerri! We just love your new bangs! during my imagination game, I might be wearing a polka dotted princess dress, tiffany might be playing in the background. We'd eat double frosted cupcakes, and there'd be dancing on the tables. You'd be there, I'd be there, we might spin in circles and won't be shy doing it. Can't you just imagine it? You, Me and all our cute new Bangs!
" Cute haircut" "I like your bangs" "wow check out those bangs"
bangs bangs bangs.
who knows what will happen later.. I know that right now, this very second, writing this to you. My insides are happy.. hopefully, your insides are happy too..
bangs and all..

Happy and Always

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